2005-03-15 #1

stuck

After all the tec issues here is a social one. A decent number of my friends are married already, plan to marry and/or are expecting a baby. All I am expecting is to sell my car without too much loss...

So I am again reflecting (see 2003-09-07) and still have no clue. Probably something in my brain is not ticking the common way, but its more likely that I am just anxious. I try to preserve current state and dislike changes (still knowing, that change is the motor keeping the world spinning).

Or its just a lack of inner motiviation - what leads to defining happiness. I *think* I feel quite happy - at least there is nothing to complain about and I am thankful for what has been given to me. An optimist would take that as a chance and go straight forward. I am using the status quo as a shield to hide behind.

I will keep you updated and check some guides at amazon…